"I loved you more than I can tell,
But now it's stomping time."
"My Rival" Steely Dan
Badly in need of some good news, I was awakened this morning by my seldom used cell phone. My shoes were in! Shopping is great, but the arrival of your chosen items is headier stuff. I managed to pick them up on the way to work. Tried them on much later. One pair I love(!), the other has a lot of positives, very pretty. Tonight, I'm painting my toenails with my favorite mauve shade. On Thursday, I have a counseling session, and I think I'll model the shoes for her. We do things like that often. I'm free to be Leslie in whatever way I desire, however incongruous it might appear.
Hair removal had already been on my mind, but the sarcastic discouragement from the wife sent me to a whole 'nother level. Last winter's leg shaving let me find some equilibrium in an otherwise tough time. I really felt that I had found the plateau where I could tolerate the male stuff. The previous winter had been a very dark time. The longing to do more led me to engage in what passes for risky behavior in my timid world. But mostly, I just felt completely out of control, being driven by outside forces. I don't savor that feeling. For instance, I hardly ever drink for that reason. I like to have my wits about me, and feel that I'm running my own life, however far from the truth that might be.
So, I was feeling very dark Tuesday night, pre-shoes. I wrote to my therapist, reminding her that I've been writing extensively, and she might want to have a look at the blog before I come in. On Wednesday morning, she sent me a tiny little response. Wordy wisdom is fine, but it requires a long attention span. Succinct wisdom is truly a gift. Having read my latest blogs, my therapist managed to say it all in six words, two sentences. "Keep your sanity. Shave your legs." Now that's advice you can use. Between the new shoes and the new commitment to do what I need to do for my sanity, I'm feeling a lot better.
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5 hours ago
So it's "hair today, gone tomorrow!" Ouch, did I just say that? I applaud your determination. Keep up the good work on being you! :)
ReplyDeleteI've kept up on your leg hair dilemma. I'm not wanting to cause ripples on the marriage pond, but I have a solution. You could "split hairs" and not shave, but use a depilatory! Guess the "hair" on the back of her neck would "bristle" with that solution!
ReplyDeleteIts a tough one and an area that I had to navigate through with my wife also.
ReplyDeleteI started with laser on my legs, then chest and stomach and finally the arms.
That lead to laser on my face which has now turned into 30 + hours of electrolysis.
My wife was reluctant at first but like you the stress the hair caused was awful.
So eventually she agreed.
Each step was a few months apart so she had time to get herself comfortable with it.
My advise would be to take it in steps but it does seem you need to do it for your own sanity.
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If you are like me you have to do it for your own sanity. It nearly drove me over the edge. If you can shave your face why not elsewhere?
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