Taking the Reins

"Why waste unconditional love on someone who doesn't believe in the stuff" --Fiona Apple--

First off, after I posted my woohoo blast, I realized the possibility of it being misunderstood. It was in reference to the victory of Obama. Not woohoo news for everyone, I know, but it was for me.

I realize that my last blog entry left a lot of people worried about my state of mind, and rightly so. I was in a dark place that night. The comments I received were immensely helpful in clarifying what my priorities should be. And so, I'm starting to take control of my own life.

At least twice before, I've told my wife that I was going to take the hair off my legs. Each time, she bullied me into retaining the hair. So I've decided to take it off, and deal with the fallout. On Wednesday, I clipped the hair below my knees very short. Today, I shaved to my knees, and cropped the rest short. By Friday afternoon, I will have smooth legs.

I feel so unburdened today, so much lighter. I'm reaching a new level, my PhD (Pantyhose Dignity). I find few things less attractive than hair under pantyhose, though one I can think of is my hairy legs without pantyhose. But all that is moving to the history department. I'm dealing with current events now: smooth legs! Bare skin has so much more sensation. I think women have purposely tried to keep this for themselves. Not fair! This is wonderful, and I'm only halfway there.

I showed my handiwork to my therapist today. She was so proud of me! Not specifically about the hair, but about seizing control. I'm liberating myself. A marriage has two people, both with needs and feelings, and it's time that I do what I need to do to be happy. If it gets ugly, I'll ride it out. It'll take quite a bit to get me down now. I'm elated.