There hasn't been much to inspire me to write, but now that I've received an email complaining about my inattention to my blog...well, I'll just have to share what I've got.
The girl that wrote to me, a very good local friend, also said that she started HRT today. A great deal would have to change for me to walk a mile in those shoes, but it still spurs a little melancholy in me. Overwhelmingly, though, my reaction is joy for her progress toward her dream. Rock on sister!
Mrs. Leslie is having a very difficult week. One of her best friends, dating from childhood, lost her mother after a long illness. Not unexpected, but an emotional blow nonetheless. On top of this, our oldest is suffering with shingles. As she has autism, it's not clear the extent of her suffering, but she is running high fevers and constantly touching places all over her left side. We can only deduce that there is a lot of nerve pain involved.
Lastly, me. I'm past the halfway point now of my three month drought between support group meetings. Our home arrangement for Leslie time is wholly inadequate. I do have extensive time in the wee hours down in our family room. Yet, I have never felt secure in dressing fully here. Shingles girl is an inconsistent sleeper when she's well, worse now. She wouldn't care what I was wearing, but chasing her back to bed would be very risky. Just yesterday, my youngest came downstairs to find a blanket at 4am. Happily, I wasn't even partially crossdressed at the time.
You see my dilemma. It looks like the wait for the first weekend in March will be grueling. My need for all-out me time is approaching intolerable. I am still epilating about once a week, which helps settle my mind. Still, I'm feeling an emptiness several times a day. This will have to be addressed in some form before March 6th. Maybe some time with my friends, maybe Mrs. L taking the kids somewhere for a day. I'll have to speak to her about this soon.
A wood and two roads
11 hours ago
Hang in there love.
ReplyDeleteA while back when my wife and I had a period spending more time chez my parents than we'd like to have had to, we booked a cheap-ass special offer room in an under-booked Travelodge for a similar reason. 25 quid well spent, the only time I've ever taken a holiday just to see a motorway. Would something like that help?
As Jenny said: hang in there.
ReplyDeleteHope things improve soon,
Stace
PS if you want to do an outpour you know my email addess... I can't do much other than offer email support, but it's there if you need it.
Keep the faith girl! I hope that your girl will feel better soon and that life will return to normal for you. Hopefully Mrs. L will be understanding on your need for some you time. Christine Elaine
ReplyDeleteSorry to hear about your daughter. The poor baby. Shingles is something you usually associate with older folks, but it can happen to anyone who has ever had chicken pox, and it's no picnic.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had some advice for you, on your need for more Leslie time, but I don't. Your situation makes it very difficult for you. Perhaps you could work out an arrangement with Mrs.L, where you could have a night out with friends every other week or so. It's only fair that you should have some occasional real time, vs virtual time, as Leslie.
Melissa XX
Hope you get some time to yourself soon, girl. I know it's very hard to deal with and when you're waiting for a certain date...the time ticks by so slowly =/
ReplyDeleteHey girl...
ReplyDeleteI hope your daughter gets better. An email will soon be sailing through the ether.
Chin up...chest out...smile!
Calie xxx